So I'm not even sure when I should make the move. Its pretty much up to me. -Kinda just waiting to hear back about one last landscape job... whether they want it done this fall, or in the spring. It could be a decent "last job" money-maker before I move. Other than that, I have no obligations or anything holding me back here in Ohio. For the time being, I'm keeping busy with a couple lawn-care jobs, but mostly, printing and filling out job applications! -And when I'm not doing that, I'm continually updating the song database with chord charts and song files on Evident's account at Planning Center Online. So I'm staying pretty busy actually. I feel like I'm going to get carpal tunnel syndrome from all the typing I've been doing lately-not to mention all the constant texting I do! LOL!
Anyway, I'm just praying a lot about my move, and jobs, and Evident...
God, I ask that everything works out according to your plan. I'm really nervous about all of this, I would even go as far as to say that I'm pretty scared! But its all under control.
For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.
There's a song that has really been speaking to me lately, which I happen to be singing this Sunday; its called The Motions, by Matthew West...
This might hurt, its not safeBut I know that I've gotta make a changeI don't care if I breakAt least I'll be feeling something'Cause just OK is not enoughHelp me fight through the nothingness of lifeI don't want to go through the motionsI don't want to go one more dayWithout Your all-consuming passion inside of meI don't want to spend my whole life askingWhat if I had given everythingInstead of going through the motionsNo regrets, not this timeI'm going to let my heart defeat my mindLet Your love make me wholeI think I'm finally feeling something'Cause just OK is not enoughHelp me fight through the nothingness of this lifeIts such a good song, and its a lot of what I'm feeling right about now. I keep listening to it. Its a good reminder to myself to stop just going through the motions! I even made it a ringtone on my mobile, so now whenever someone calls, I'm reminded to let go, and let God fill me and move me. I don't care if I break, right? At least I'll be feeling something.
Let YOUR love make me whole, Lord. Guide me (or push me, maybe even kick me!) to where I need to be. I'm ready to start being the man you want me to be, God. -Its about time, huh?
Anyway, I need to go to bed.